The Unlikely Law Student

So surprisingly, I slept ok. It took me a while to get off to nod-land but I eventually did, (at around 2am nonetheless) and was awake again at 7. 5 hours are better than none in my book. I have decided that I may sleep forever as I rather like that oblivious everything-is the-same-as-it-was-yesterday feeling and the nothing-has-changed feeling that waking up brings. But I don't think non stop sleep can regarded as actually living. Unfortunatly.

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This afternoon, my boyfriend of two years told me that he didn't think he was in love with me any longer. What can you say to a comment like that? In a matter of moments my whole world felt like it was crumbling at my fingertips.I agree that we have been having problems, and it has made things stale, but all of this feels just too hastily done. I am stupidly confused for many reasons:
1. He insists that he still cares for me and that none of this is my fault (difficult for me to believe right now) because he thinks I am perfect? Oh how perfect I must be! So perfect that he decides to end our relationship!
2. As he sits and explains his feelings to me, he cries just as hard as i do about the whole charade and hugs me so tight I nearly faint. What am I supposed to make of that?
3. He looks at me like he always has.
4. When I leave him, he hugs me harder still and not only kisses my forehead like he always used to, but properly kisses me, this time, unlike he ever has before.

I think deep down he's just as confused as I am, and personally think that he has mistaken to staleness and lack of spark (which i have also been feeling), for something more drastic so instead of doing what a normal person would and actually TALKING about things, he does the only thing he feels he is able to do.

I feel like a fool for not seeing it coming really, but I'm half hoping that in a few weeks he'll realise how much he misses me and what a terrible mistake he has made.
Dream on love!

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